November 9th:

School is stressing me out so bad, im borderline for failing 3 classes. NEVER AGAIN am I slacking off like I did this year, I need to get my grades up. I want to have all b's and a's next six weeks. Between drama and M im just annoyed beyond belief. I dont know what I want, I just want to cuddle up and cry next to you and listen to you comfort me like you always do.. but your an asswhole just like your friends. . I hope you really aren't though. You never have been to me, i appreciate that so much but the way you are to others makes me wonder. I lost alot of respect for you after that one night it makes me wonder what you really want, me or the p. hmm. I am gonna brainstorm and use my blair waldorf plans again and get everything back on track.