Happiness:

I miss being happy. I miss the thrill. I miss knowing I looked good. I miss being confident. I miss being fearless.
I wish I was pretty inside and out. I wish we were still friends but you weren't the way you are now. I wish you thought of me cool and gorgeous not annoying, prude, weird, and boring. I wish I had more friends. I wish I was part of that group and not awkward. I wish people left my name out of their drama. I wish my mom would stop being such a bitch and hurtful to me and that she wins her case. I wish she gets help. I wish it doesn't scar me like I think it is. I wish I was smarter. I wish I was skinnier. I wish I was popular. I wish I wasnt awkward.  I wish I thought more of myself. I wish I wasnt so embarassing. I wish I was perfect.